This also put the M/s experiment on hold for awhile. The sinus infection is subsiding. I went on massive doses of Echinacea which helped me get better in faster time.

The new job has been rough. A couple people i work with are not up to my standards. We are expected to do all of this work and wait on the customers as well. I know i'll adjust to it. It's been a long time since i've had a job like this where i was expected to get everything done. There's an "i don't care" attitude with some of my co-workers. i'm someone who does care, and i want to do things right, but it makes it hard when all i hear is "oh that's ok, don't worry about it."

Still, i get to work the Phil Collins concert this week. Which means i'm working seven days this week starting tomorrow. I'm on the afternoon/evening shift, so that will give me time to get stuff done around the house during the day. And hopefully write more often.

It's weird adjusting to a full time schedule after having all this free time over the last couple of years. I'm in that space where i could resent having taken a job that interferes with my life. And that's a dangerous space for me to be in. Once i get used to working again, i'll be able to adjust to the home schedule as well.

It's beneficial to the household that i'm working. I'm discovering that i've had a mental attitude shift in a positive direction because i'll be earning money, and contributing to the finances. Even though the job is rough, the attitude change is good. I like feeling positive, and not being in depression about Master having to pay everything, and not having enough left over to have any fun. (Movies, going out with friends, etc...). Hearing Her say "this is paid, but we need to pay that, and get this, but I only have this much left." And She doesn't say it to guilt trip me, it's a thinking aloud thing, still, it plays on my inability to help support our financial situation. It was also depressing putting all those applications out and not getting any response back from prospective employers.

Now, i am gainfully employed, and though i'm not making much, it will be enough to help us out of the financial hole, and give us a bit of "fun" money. Hopefully we'll be able to start saving towards getting me a vehicle, and getting that RV we both want. And the other goal is to be able to afford to rent a house, instead of an apartment. So i must stay working in order for all of this to happen.

Besides, it makes me a stronger better boy. And i am providing service to Master by bringing in a paycheck!