12.01.04
9:30 p.m.
Another month come and gone. It seemed like a long one, with adjusting to the job and everything.
Master and i just returned from mad shopping for the SWLC. She is in charge of the hospitality suite this weekend, and we were out buying all the goods for that purpose. I am a double tired boy! But it's fun being able to help Master make purchases that keep us well under budget.
I am looking forward to the weekend. I found out i am off all weekend, so i will be available to help Master any way i can. And attend workshops and the contests, etc...this is a good thing. I work for a very cool chef, seeing as this is one of our busiest weekends.
My brain has been stumbling for the last few days. i had a headache most of today, and don't really know why. Woke up with one, it calmed down, but kicked in half way through work. Did not make me a happy boy.
Master is striving for better use of language on Her new Live Journal. I feel like i haven't been expressing myself very well on this journal as far as the use of better language (word choice and grammer structure). Hopefully as time goes on, i'll be able to spend more time exercising the intelligent use of words, instead of short hand boy-speak.
Although, now my readers have probably gotten used to it. Might scare y'all if i came up with fancy expressions. Some people seem to like the simplicity, and the way i write from my gut and my heart. I am just trying to express myself in the best way possible, and publish it for all of you to see.
Good news! Master and i were able to have some intimate time last night, finally! It's been a while, and She used Her little canes on my breasts and buttocks. So not only did we have great sex, but i got a bit of pain out of it as well. I know we are building up to some sort of big "scene." I just want to make sure i'm ready for it mentally and physically. Her sadistic side hasn't been fed in a long time. It's way overdue.
Again with all the life changes, and schedule rearrangements, it's been very hard to even think about processing pain, let alone taking the time to make sure everything is set right. Been keeping the bedroom clean (cleanest room in the house), but it's not getting used that much for heavy interactions. Hopefully Master will make the time. This weekend will recharge Her, and we can interact as Sadist and Masochist.
Being in a twenty-four seven Master/slave relationship is different than being in a 24/7 S/M relationship. I don't walk around black and blue all the time. I'm usually thinking about what to make for dinner, and what didn't i get done on the "To do" list. Master tells me that i've had good slave focus, yet i had another bout of "i'm not a good slave." I'm just a boy with an attitude. She tells me that i'm doing good when i catch myself phrasing something wrong, and correct it. Or when i kneel to present Her with a requested item. I have been good about getting up consistantly on time, getting some household stuff accomplished, and getting Her breakfast and lunch ready, and getting out the door in time to punch in on time at work. That is a requirement, that i am not late for work.
OhMYGod! I've been getting up before 6 a.m. every day for a month now, in order to get to work and do my job. This has got to be a first in this boy's History. Again, Master is good for me. And there isn't even resistance about (except on my only day off). I actually want to be up and about half an hour before the time i'm getting up right now...i need about 2 more hours in the day to accomplish all the things required of me.
It's a busy life, but one i am enjoying. No injured ankle or icky hands, although the foot hasn't healed up yet. No more deaths in the family or traumatic events to stop me in my tracks. There is forward motion in my life right now. The positive energy flow that i've finally managed to tap into. The kind that says i've released the negativity of the past, and can move in the direction of my dreams and goals.
Now, if i can carve out some time for the poetry, i'll be really, really happy.
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