During this long weekend, Master made sure i had dinner, and that i took care of my ankle. She was very supportive, and when i talked to Her on Saturday during my break, i gave Her a status report and let Her know how tired and sore i was. Some of the shifts i'll be working won't be that demanding, but being back to work with an ankle that isn't 100% is a hard thing. Most of the kitchens i work in are big and there is lots of walking involved. And after not working for over a year, i knew that it would be a challenge. I rose to that challenge, met it, and was still able to be respectful with Master.

There was also an incident over the weekend that i was able to take care of in an appropriate way. As Master's slave, i represent Her in everything i do. And even if the people i work with don't know me or Her or our particular dynamic, i still remember this. So when the incident came up, i had a choice to make. I could have responded in a very negative way. I could have gotten angry and fought back with the other person. I didn't. I knew i could go through the chain of command and report the person. I stayed calm, and knew that i had made a choice that Master would be proud of. I also represent the company i work for. Responding in a negative fashion would reflect poorly on that company as well, and go on my record. I handled the situation, and let those in charge take care of the problem. I came home, and reported to Master how i handled the situation, and let her know about the phone call i made to my supervisors to report the incident.

I have this sense of personal satisfaction . By not feeding into the negative energy, and still being gracious and trying to continue to help the person, i remained professional. I have been known to have arguements with other cooks, and fight and tossle with them. It is a relief to me to know that i can behave much better then that today.

I think it is due to the life changes i have made. It is because i am in a place where i am happy. Master and i have a good relationship. We have calm in our house, neither of us want the "Crisis" mentality, and work hard at staying in solutions, not problems. This helps me a great deal in my profession. When i am confronted with negative energy, i can stay calm and centered, and not get knocked off balance. It was good to know that after a year of being out of the work environment, i could go back into it, and behave well.

The presentation i did last night was on "Power Bottoms." i'm not going into how to define that or what it is right now. That will be an upcoming essay. I'll say this, it was well received, and for not being as ready as i could have been, i got so much positive feedback on what i said. I just really spoke from my heart on lots of things i've been thinking about over the years. I believe that the above paragraphs show what a power bottom can be. I was sort of stressed over the whole thing, and took a few minutes to address this with Master. She gave me reassurance, and said that it would be ok. I believed Her, and we went from there.

We got home late, later then i expected. And got right to sleep. I am a pretty excited boy today because these really good things happened when they were potentially negative issues. Acting out of one's own sense of correctness, and being polite and gracious and having the ability to still smile through bullshit is quite invigorating. Staying in one's own truth, and radiating that out to the world. It is empowering and a much better high then the one generated by all the icky negative energy i have fed into over the years.

Cool.