I opted to build this website and maintain it myself so that i had some level of responsibility in my life. And sometimes, i'm not so good with the responsibility thing. Oh well.

I had a job interview today. The first one in almost a year. It was one of those "group" interviews, with Jamba Juice. I have another one lined up for tomorrow morning at a Racquet Club. I'm trying to find employment in a job that has minimal stress and where i can have some fun. I also want to work with a company that is in line with some of my personal philosphies. I also want stable work. Work that isn't going to go away in the summertime. Our season here in the Valley is Winter/Spring. We call summer "summer death" because people don't go out and eat when it's +115 degrees. There's a couple other places to check out. Hard Rock Cafe is hiring also. But i'm not sure i want to go back into a big stressful corporate kitchen just yet.

But i do need to secure employment. I felt that i did well this morning. I was in the first group interview of the day. So i think that means something. I didn't get picked to stay, but i felt a strong connection with the District Manager who conducted the interview process. It was at 7:30 this morning...so Master had to get ready just a little early, and take me down there, so that She could get to work on time.

I don't like the job hunting thing, and the whole interview process. I know it's necessary, but it falls under the "necessary evil" catagory. And it's something i have to do in order to gain employment. At least my hands seem to be stablizing, and the foot/ankle is getting stronger. I walked home this morning its almost a mile walk. I did ok. It was a little sore, but not too bad.

I'm actually getting excited about the prospect of work again. Making a little bit of money so we can start saving. The jobs i'm going for aren't the higher paying jobs, but right now it's not about making loads of cash, it's about finding a good enviroment. My experience has been that if i can get into a place that starts off with a lower wage, i usually gain raises within the first month or so.

Master and i have been doing alright. We seem to be in a very good place in our relationship. I'm still not the "perfect" slave, but because i can do more now, i feel more useful. Now if i can just stay away from this new addiction, and concentrate on some of the stuff that needs to get done (like all the filing i have to do. The boxes are just sitting in the office, mocking me), i'd feel a bit better.

That's the latest report. Hopefully by next week or so, i will be gainfully employed. I keep checking with Master, making sure that going out and getting a job is what She wants me to do. And She keeps saying "Yes, this is what i want you to do." Making sure i am not in conflict with Her wishes...is that what a good slave does?

One of the things i am absolutely sure about is that there is no right or wrong way to do this. Every relationship within this Lifestyle, this community, seems to have it's own definition. As i read more, and go to more events, and talk to people, i find differences. But isn't that what makes us unique? If someone is looking for one standard, or universal constant in an M/s dynamic, they will be on a futile search. There are no cut and dried answers. It is a fluid, growing, changing life. And unlike some people...i do like change.