We got back to the apartment and listened to the vocals, and talked. Then he took me back to the car. I was supposed to pay some bills today, but decided i needed to experiment. I'm uploading a movie file, and i can't really access the parts of the web i need to (dial up sucks!). So, only one thing got done on the list today, and i got the dishwasher unloaded after Master got home.

What happened to the day? I really don't know where this morning went. It distresses me when time gets away like that. I got more stuff i need to get done, and i can't spend all my time figuring out one little thing! (but it'll be cool one i figure it out!).

There's just so much, and i feel so pressured for time. And all the pressure i'm putting on myself. It takes time to figure webstuff out, and i think to myself, if i could just get back into school for web graphic design. And we don't have the money for that, and i'm in debt up to my eyeballs over the education i'm not making use of...*sigh*

Hopefully the rest of the week will be a little better. I just chalk it up to a Monday, and move on from there.

On a positive note: Master has been getting so much done around the house. It really doesn't look like it, but there has been organization happening, and it's a wonderful thing, and i feel inspired to get more of my stuff done, and i haven't yet. Maybe that's where the pressure is coming from.

But it's done now...i have a few more tweaks left, but hopefully it won't be near as long or as involved as Monday and Tuesday were.
I got all my bells and whistles working.

I went to a job career Fair yesterday. Made contact with a job i've been wanting to apply for. Had another interview for a job i probably won't get. But at least i'm interviewing.

The hands are slowly healing. Master let me pick up some Burt's bees hand salve with Rosemary in it. The hands really like this stuff and are responding to it well. I can't wait until they are all the way healed!

I started doing creative stuff again. I put together the Chapbook, FINALLY! Well, and i finally found a name for it..."Crisis of Consciousness." It contains some of the socio-political stuff i've written over the years.

Got the video hooked up to the puter, and it all works...sound and all...made a little video diary today (been wanting to do this for years.)It's a little over two minutes. One of the compressions i did made it only a 40 meg file...yikes! Don't know how to put those on the website yet...but given time i'll be able to figure it out.

I am going to work on re-structuring the diecastpoetry website. Make the graphics smaller, add "Crisis" and we are going to figure out how to add streaming audio...can anyone out there send me some decent links for info on this???

I'm not feeling so good about the slave stuff...Master has been chaining me to the bed every night. She's working on helping me focus. Sometimes though, She's just really tired when She gets home, and doesn't want to do all the things that are required in an M/s relationship. Sometimes i don't want to either, but as the slave, it's part of my job to do as She wishes, and be the "good" slave. Which means obeying standard orders, and being the anticipatory service slave. Not an easy job with a whimsical Master.

Focus is a good thing.

I want to try to get to some open mics over the next few weeks. That means taking time away from home and Master. But in order to do what i need to do to forward the project, it is what the Art demands.

And it's the creative stuff, and the puter stuff that made it a very long week!