08.10.05
8:00 p.m.
Just a quick update. I'm adjusting to the new job, new hours, new people. It's not all roses and pretty, but I'm getting there. I've had training, and got a chance to network yesterday with someone from L.A.!
Life at home has been good. We've both been adjusting well to the early evening sleeping thing. Yesterday I was so tired, I went to bed at 6 p.m. Weird for me.
Master has found a possible job opportunity that could be really good for Her. She's sending a resume out tomorrow. If they pick Her, it would be everything She's asked for in a job.
We've been having intense dialogue about M/s dynamics, and the labeling of other relationships in the Lifestyle. This was brought on by a comment from the person who drew up the M/s flag. Very heated debate. We are saying the same things we've said for the last three years, just at a different level. I know what kind of slave I am, what kind of personality I have. And I know Master, and Her brand of Mastery. I just wonder sometimes why we talk about it so much. I guess it helps solidify the relationship and our respective positions. And it helps Her work out in Her head what She is all about, and what other people are doing in their dynamics.
It feels like when I was still debating gay/lesbian politics, definitions, identities and genders. I'm through with that. People are what and who they are, and will define themselves by social clues. Those clues keep shifting and changing, defying the labels we invent to define who we are. Isn't that the nature of society?
And all I want is a quality career, a simple home life, food on the table, and friends who feel good to be around. The complications of defining existance can bore me sometimes, even though I see the necessity of the process of defining.
Any way, that's the thought of the evening. I'll write more later when I have time.
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