12.28.05
11:30 a.m.
It's been a busy couple weeks for this boy. Running around getting the house ready for guests, general shopping and errands, taking care of Master and Her owie, and taking care of Mamasita.
I've been frustrated about the mom situation. She's not someone who will change, nor even attempt to see someone else's perspective. If it is not about HER world and her life, there isn't much retention factor, or focus. I'm doing the best I can. I'm working on being patient. tolerant, and kind. It doesn't come easy. It took me over a year to get to this point when I lived at home with my parents back in '00. I've only been here a couple of months...I guess it is different living with your family, I knew most of their quirks. This family I don't know so well. Just because I know Master, it is not a reflection on the rest of Her kin. Getting along with them is taking some getting used to.
I want Master to be better. She's frustrated too. Wants off the crutches, wants to help, and simply can't. Even the simplest things are hard, and the last two days have involved some intense pain in Her leg. We see the Dr. tomorrow, so we'll know more then.
We went to Kansas City a little over a week ago. It was a good trip, and a good drive. We met some new people, and found a possible temporary helper. She came over last week and helped me do some of the cleaning.
It is really hard for me not being able to focus on good food for Master. My time involves many loads of laundry, vacuuming, meals, and general care-taking. Because Master cannot do the things She normally does to help me out, I can't focus on the quality of food, or mass production for later consumption. We talked about this, and about my ability to focus on feeding us well. (We ran into a little snafu the other day over the food issue). The result was I was able to spend the day yesterday in the kitchen. OH HAPPY DAY!
What I cooked:
- Vegetable Stock
- Rice
- Black Beans
- Vegetarian Chili
- Bread & Bread bowls
- Potato Soup
- Apple Sauce
Let it stand for the record: I miss my apprentice/assistant/cooking student iangeisha...Oh lordy did I need her yesterday! And I miss teaching someone all the process of what I am doing. Especially the bread making, since we hadn't gotten to that lesson yet.
Now, there is food in the refrigerator that I can just reheat. There is yummy, wholesome bread, there are vegetables and stuff in the refrigerator for saute/side dishes. This is a good thing. Yeah, I went shopping and got about $70.00 worth of food. It was a happy thing. Now we have to eat all this food so it doesn't spoil. Don't think that will be a problem.
And today, I am much more relaxed then yesterday, or the day before. I was able to do something that I love to do. The people in the house were all freaked out. They don't understand the passion of a "good dough day" or how the bread is proofing, or how well something came out. I am continually amazed at people's inability to discern what is quality, and what is good for them. Is this why America has the #1 overweight population of the world?
Master's sister is in the hospital. She went in yesterday morning. They are running tests today, it is making for a tense environment in the house.
I am coping well with two extra people in the house. I thought I would get more freaked out by it. It's nice to have other people to talk to for a change.
And that's the little bitty update. At least I've got a couple of days of rest; I don't have to go to the sister's house, and I don't have to shuttle Mamasita around. So I can focus on just Master and my service to Her. YaY!
Oh yeah, I got three new pans for Xmas...a saute pan, and large and small frying pans. They're the calaphon wear, they work great. I always feel a bit guilty when folks give me something and I don't have anything to give back. I came up with a little something. So I feel better about that. It's the whole I don't celebrate xmas, I celebrate Solstice, and so many people don't get it. Especially here in the Heartland...
I was also able to take some time out to get a little creative. Here's the result...
It's not my first .gif, but its the first one I've put up on my website.
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