11.12.05
10:39 a.m.
Haven't yet started travel log, probably won't at this time...too much work to remember.
Today marks 3 years since my mother passed away. It is a long time, but an unforgettable event in my life.
Transition and culture shock!
- Seeing Afro-Americans doing the jobs I'm used to seeing Hispanics do in Arizona.
- This is a Pontiac Town, I've seen more Grand Am's and GT's then I ever saw in Phoenix.
- No mountains to look at.
- AA meetings are hard to find and they have them in restaurants, that makes me hungry, and I don't have the money to eat out.
- 3 grocery stores to choose from. 2 movie theatres; one shows first releases, the other is the cheapie theatre.
- Anyone know where the gay bar is in Topeka? Missing the boys, the lifestyle, and the brotherhood.
There are many Harley's. Lots of motorcycle riding. It's been in the 70's here during the day, which is really warm in November for Kansas. Keeps people on their bikes. I believe that Master and I brought the good weather with us. Today it is bleak and cloudy though. The sun isn't breaking through yet.First day I've got up and haven't seen full sunshine.
I got to see all the trees "turn". The colors were beautiful. I've never witnessed this process. We get a little of it in Arizona, but not like here where there is row after row of trees and they are all turning. Then the leaves fall. There are leaves everywhere, then the trees are naked and you know winter is coming. It makes me sad when all the trees are naked. People say then when Spring comes and the trees bud and grow fresh leaves you know it will get warm again. But you have to spend all that time in the cold before the trees grow leaves again.
My body isn't happy with the cold. We didn't run the space heater last night and I woke up stiff and sore today. Ok, probably because I've been doing all this plumbing work.
Plumbing Adventures:
Yesterday I ran a motorized snake...and made a major boo-boo. Ran the snake through to the other bathroom pipes where it drilled itself right through the pvc pipe. That was fun. I had to call Master's dad to come over and help. He ran the snake because I thought I was doing it wrong, After a bit of time I checked the other bathroom, and there was the snake and black goo all over the floor. Not a a pretty sight. We then had to push the end of the snake back through the pvc pipe. I had to fix the front bathroom as well as work on the back bathroom. And I haven't finished the job yet.
I've made two trips to Lowe's, three trips to Home Depot, and one trip to True Value. We are calling a plumber Monday. Fixing the kitchen sink drain was easy compared to the bathroom problem.
The job never called me back. I called and left a message for the Chef, and he didn't call me back. So Monday I have to start looking for another job. Master called about Her unemployment, and she'll be getting checks. And we'll get a small check for helping out Her sister. That will help with the finances. We have all these bills due starting like the 3'd of November, and really no way to pay them until one of us gets at least a 30 hour a week job. I couldn't look for a job this week due to the plumbing adventures.
The care-taking is taking alot out of both of us. Master has never had to do this level of personal care before. She hadn't readied Herself for all the problems associated with pain medicine, cumidin, and seeing your Mom go through so much. I've been through it. I knew what was involved. At least this is short term and Mamasita will get better over time and not worse.
Still I am adjusting to this new life. This inability to serve Master the way she likes to be served. The constant interruptions during movies or TV shows. Having to do run errands without each other because one of us has to be here at all times.
I had the wierdest dream last night. Part of it involved Master getting snuggly with someone else, while I was still around, and She showed total lack of concern for my well being. I was angry and hurt, and not understanding why she would do something like that. I don't usually get all jealous, unless I am being shoved aside, and that is what it felt like. My subconscious is definitely trying to work something out about our situation. Even though we aren't as physically close as usual, we are at least showing affection and concern for each other. Can't complain about that.
I know I'm at the point of rambling. I'll write more later, and maybe it will make sense. I just needed to get this out because it has been building up the last few days. Especially the culture shock!
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