11.09.06
10:00 a.m.

Right now I am happy, almost delirous. Life for me is good--maybe even great. Things aren't perfect, but it's pretty damn good.

I like where we are living. I have a job I like. I enjoy most of the people I work with, but the main part of my day consists of driving catering orders to different places, setting up and leaving. A little secret...I wanted a delivery job. For several years I've been looking at them, none of them really appealed to me. The job I'm in combines my love of food, my desire to drive a truck, and working with competent people. How did this happen?

Sometimes I get to cook, play in the kitchen. It's not glorious cooking, but at least I'm in there once in a while. I get to set up mobile cooking sites, and prepare food outdoors. Yeah, it is interesting and challenging. I am learning so much about this end of my chosen profession. And apparently I picked a good company to work for!

I'm working on videos. I've got some posted on youtube.com, I am working on another project that will come forth sometime in the summer. (involves the food thing). I've been creating new dishes at home for Master to enjoy. And that makes me really, really happy.

The bills are paid, there's food in the cupboards, I'm not in the cold, wet, windy, flat place anymore. We are amongst friends and FOC, I've already been to several Leather and Kink related events, received loads of hugs, and am in sunshine and desert views.

Most people write when they are unhappy. When life is terribly wrong. Some people write for the sake of writing. Others post when they feel they have something to say. I used to be in the first catagory. Things are wrong...write about it. I feel now that it is important just to write. To document what is going on in my life. I have this need to be able to look back and say, oh, that is what I was feeling or doing at the time. Life is going to be very busy in the next two months, so maybe I won't write so much. But if I get in this habit of writing something at the time I feel it, or when I have 5 minutes, then, this webjournal won't go ignored.

I've also been grabbing a notebook when I can't on the computer to write things down. Just because I am feeling them. This is a good thing. Instead of ignoring the process I am giving in to it. I ignored it in Kansas. Didn't post much there. And maybe this is a reaction to that. I didn't document my life the way I am used to, and now I must. Good habits are crucial. And I feel that this is a good habit.

Watching Master move through the process of writing a novel is exciting. She's writing a novel, I'm working on videos, and the house is getting ignored...neither of us have the motivation or time to keep our living environment as clean as we would like it. How does one balance creativity, jobs, and chores? (where is that other domestic slave?).

Time to get ready for work...

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11.06.06
2:00 p.m.

I'm going to spend the next few days cooking. I haven't been very creative lately, and it's starting to get to me. I NEED to make things, play with food, tweak recipes, and have fun with it. My job isn't alloting for cooking time. It's delivery, and manning stations at events. The other day when I got into the kitchen, I made mashed potatos, and cut about 1,000 silver dollar rolls...yeah, that was challenging.

On the menu this week:

• Tofu Scramble
• Jicima orange salad
• Asparagus with red pepper sauce
• Bulgher with spinach
• Indian Curried potato wrap
• Roasted red pepper and onion wrap
• Curried Quinoa
• Thai eggplant and tomato salad
• Cucumber and Citrus salad
• Zucchini, jicima, and apple salad
• Bulgher salad with cranberries and Zucchini
• Black Bean and pepper salad

check out this source to find out about some of the foods above.

These are just a few items to start out with. Master had sat down a long time ago and wrote down some of the recipes she saw in our various cookbooks. I have to cross out some of them because they involve dairy, (though I'm going to learn what I can convert. We found a vegan "sour cream" that we are going to try soon), but this list contains about 1/4 of the items she requested.

We went shopping yesterday and procured some of the necessary items. Today I have to finish that shopping list. I'm picky about quality, and won't buy just any red or green pepper. It's got to be a GOOD pepper. There's a market that carries loads of produce at really reasonable prices, so I'm going out there to buy what I need.

I'm excited about it and am going to go start in a few minutes.

There are other things I have to cook, like vegatable stock, black beans and rice, I'm going to make hummus, and I've got to have a bit of a dinner plan. It's still early. I also need to make more french bread, and maybe Wed. I can make some more bread. The recipe I tried last time pretty much sucked...I either need to knead the dough more, or tweak the recipe. I'm going to go back to the basic white bread recipe I was using to get lift on the loaf. (I know some of you will understand this).

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11.02.06
12:00 p.m.

Update

Been busy working. Hard to believe it's November already. I've been teaching myself DVD authoring, and hopefully will have something finished later this week. Its ever so exciting and frustrating, and Master is having a hard time with my lack of attention while working on creative projects.

I'm attempting to find that balance. I have the balance between work and working on the creative projects. That is a good thing. Now I have to attempt to work on the time involved between creative projects and all the stuff that needs attention in the house. Especially Master.

Here's hoping.

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