10.26.06
8:30 p.m.
Warning: Techno-geek info is in this entry!
I've spent the last several days experimenting on making a video. I loaded in some excerpts of a live poetry show I did at AccessTucson in 1997. I added titles, graphics, and end credits. I tweaked fades and added some extra bits of audio to make the video a bit better.
Pretty much it is straight up from what we shot in the studio. I'm staying away from effects or anything fancy. This is about preserving the performances, and putting them into a cohesive pattern. Latter I can burn the projects to dvd and watch them, share them, sell the disks, whatever. This of course happens after I learn how to author a dvd (not included in my college education, which was pre-digital).
The point is I've done something that I love to do, that I went to school to learn how to do, and that preserves my creativity. I have several more tapes, and projects to assemble, but this was the easiest one to work with.
I want to share the finished product, however, youtube only allows for 10 min videos, this one is 22 mins (how did I create something that is exactly the length of a half-hour network show???). What I have to do is render each and every segment as a stand alone video and then upload them to my youtube channel. This means taking more resources on the computer, and I haven't much time. Puter has to go into the doctor today, so we can get it back in time for Master to begin NanoWrimo. While She is busy writing a novel, I will have limited computer access to work on the videos.
The other problem is that the program that I am using that I am absolutely totally and completely in love with will go away in 19 days. We can't afford the program, and missed our opportunity when it was on sale at Best Buy. Now we have no $$, and I really, really want this program! It takes very little of the puter's resources during the editing process. It is only during the rendering process that the puter slows down. It has so many bells and whistles, and even though I am only going to be making basic videos, it's the thought that I have access to all those bells and whistles that excites me, and learning about them.
I don't have anyone to share my enjoyment of this process with. I haven't worked on any video since the Slaveboy diaries. I made Master a dvd of the collection, although I didn't author the dvd so it's a play it straight through situatuion. I want someone to share this with. I am so excited. I didn't do much non-linear editing after college. My education was all in analog. I was moving into a little bit of it when AccessTucson started renovating their studios. Still, it was rather confusing, and not as clean as this desktop editing is. I'm learning all sorts of things, and I'm excited about the way it happens. How you can just add the media, clip it, trim it, or cut it, and it takes no time. No shuttling tapes back and forth, no waiting for five minutes to make the next editing decision. Wow! And less then two hours to render a 22 min video, when just a few years ago it took overnight and five computer drives to render a 1 minute piece. Who out there can I share this with?????????????????
Ok...nuff of that.
There is so much I have to get done that I haven't done. Clothes, dishes, cats, furniture, organizing...it all has to happen, now, if not sooner. Because the negative side of spending all this time on video is that I've been ignoring my many other duties as slaveboy, and I know that Master is a bit frustrated with me...I am going to try to correct that and pay attention to household chores.
And then hopefully have some more time to mess around with this stuff, and at least get some of these other tapes captured to the hard drive.
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10.17.06
8:30 p.m.
It would be easier if I would keep up more on this journal, but last week was a whirlwind. I started the new job, and on that same day I had commited to a stagehand gig. The actual hours worked were 16. The actual time awake was like 22 hours. The day off was spent sleeping, staying awake for a few hours, sleeping some more, being awake for an hour or two longer, then sleeping again.
I spent the weekend working in a very beautiful spot here in the Valley, The Desert Botanical Gardens. Ok, so they weren't Chef shifts where I make the good money, but I had fun, beautiful scenery, and interesting people to look at during a plant sale!
Friday was a 12.5 hour day, and though not as physically laborious as Tuesday, it was still a long day, out in the sun, and then smiling at people as I dished up Roasted Chicken and chopped Artichoke and Tomato salad (can we say yummy!).
I started the delivery shifts this week, and though short days, I'm having a good time. It's about the people I get to work with, the attitude of the owner, and feeling good about myself because I seem to have found a work environment that I can get along with. I hope it keeps up.
Tomorrow I have a full day off, and I won't be sleeping through it. Hopefully I can get some more things accomplished around the house. There's still so much to do, but I haven't had the time with the work schedule I've had.
Master and I are reconnecting with the M/s dynamic. There seem to be a few relationships we know that are changing and shifting. I'm not sure if that means She's worried about Our relationship, or if She is just concerned about our friends. I've seen so many changes in relationships, and so many breakups that it doesn't surprise me, or make me worry about ours. People are the way they are, and they change, and outgrow certain things, or gain different desires. I've pointed out the successful relationships we know about. All we can do is send vibrating love energy to our friends to help them through the different/difficult transitions.
I have the greatest confidence that the relationship Master and I have is solid, has a firm foundation, and is built on communication, honesty, trust, and a willingness to grow with each other. I've stood by as She has moved through this last transition, and She has stood by me as I go through my various changes/transitions. I feel that that the M/s dynamic is strong, and can last a very long time, as long as it is nurtured and fed.
I made some gross mistakes a couple of weeks ago, that I intended to write about. Trust came up. I felt awful, and devasted to here words like "How can I trust you if you can't do these simple things?" And Master was right. If I can't pay attention to the little details, how can She trust me to take care of the bigger things? We talked, a long time, about this, and what happened. All I could offer in penance was that I would not make the same mistakes. One of them was about my career choice and taking the new job, and not consulting Her first. The man was pulling hiring paper work, it might have seemed wishy-washy if I stated I needed to consult with my partner first. Especially after the comment about liking my attitude.
My career is important to both of us. Each step I make is about learning something new, some different aspect of the F&B industry. This is about gaining experience that will help me shape the business we are going to create together. Taking this job is one step closer to that goal. I didn't want to lose an opportunity like this. And that's how I "defended" it.
And Master didn't want defensive, She wanted answers. I didn't have any to offer, and "beg your pardon" sounded a bit too trite. We finally worked it out, and found a resolution. I only hope that the trust is as strong as has been in the past.
So, yes, we have our difficulties. Something seems to let us work them out so that we can move on and continue to grow. Some deep, strong, brilliant kind of spiritual bond, that unconditional love that guides us and keeps us bound together in a way I've never experienced before. And I'm not about getting sappy, or romantic or anything like that, because if I could describe this visually, I would. If I could find better words I would. We survived 10.5 months in Kansas, and moving half way across the country twice in one year without blowing apart. And that's really a lot a lot! We lived with FOO, that just about drove us both crazy, and now we are home, nestled below the peak, surrounded by our beloved FOC, who though they might try to make us a bit crazy, we still love fiercely and with a passion.
And maybe that's what this is about. Fierce passion about life, and how we've chosen to live it; and not willing to give it up easily. We're not willing to hurt each other in any way that would last longer than a heartbeat or two. And we conduct our lives accordingly.
That's the gist of it. More later...
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