09.26.06
8:30 p.m.
Thrift Stores Rock!
Our weekend hunt in thrift stores was very successful. We found several necessary items, one piece Master had been wanting for a long time.
1) $7.48--An entertainment center with pull-out racks for dvd/videotapes. Dimensions: h 65 3/4"x w 32"x d 16 1/2"
2) $12.00--A small secretary desk for Master to sit at and write, and pay bills, and stay organized. Dimensions: h 40 1/4"x w 30 1/4"x d 19 1/2"
3) $25.00--A dresser, not very pretty, but extremely functional. Nine drawers, and plenty of room on top to put things...like a tv/vcr, a lamp, and other bedroom items. Dimensions: h 31 1/2"x w 67 1/2"x d 17 3/4"
Total: $48.49 plus tax.
We couldn't find the outlet in the art room that the wall switch goes to, which means we won't be able to use the switch to turn a light on and off. Kind of sucks, but hey, it's an art room! I got the bookshelves up today, had to purchase a masonry drill bit, screws and anchors, since I was drilling into a brick wall. More stuff is coming out of boxes and going onto shelves. I got all the electronics set up on/in the entertainment center. It's housing the router and cable modem for the puter as well as vcr/cable box and tv.
I feel like I shouldn't be as tired as I am, but Master pointed out the work I've done today, as well as going to two different jobs Sunday and Monday. It feels like it should be Friday already.
I updated my resume/cover letter today on careerbuilder, and sent out an application or two. I got one call back from on-line resumes, and a call back from a source that viewed my resume. That's pretty good for just a couple hours worth of work.
I also had a couple hours to myself today. I can't remember the last time I had complete and total alone time. I was rather confused and disoriented to not have anyone else around. There were things I wanted to do, but I couldn't figure out where to start. I finally just pretty much sat at the computer futzing with the resume, and playing diner dash.
I'm hoping to take a bath tonight. I have to clean out the tub, but then I can relax in a nice hot soak, and let the world float away for a while. Maybe I'll light some candles and have a bit of atmosphere. I've missed taking baths!
I found a computer desk on line today. I'm waiting for my buddy to call me back with a phone # so I can start negotiating with the person who is keeping my old desk. It's pretty inexpensive, and what I am looking for to fit in the living room.
I can't think of any other updates, except that it's good to be getting out of boxes and getting our living areas set. When the bedroom is finally set up proper I'll be really happy!
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09.22.06
11:45 p.m.
The Squishy Move!
It's not over, but almost. So, most of our things are with us in Master's new apartment. Important things like cable and internet are set up. 80% of the Kitchen is put together. The bed is down, the cats are here, and I'm exhausted!
We're calling this the squishy move because we packed and squished things into boxes, into the moving truck, and into our traveling kits. I squished the iguana into his traveling bag. We squished things into the car when moving into our new place. It was just squishy.
Now we have the joy of unpacking and organizing EVERYTHING! Some of it is unpacked and out, but not organized. Master wants it organized. She wants Her house in order. I don't blame her, so do I. I also know that we are both sore, tired, and in need of lots and lots of rest. I work on Sunday, and we both have to seriously job hunt starting Monday.
Master and I have been trying to figure out how we are going to fit all of the furniture into our current living area. This also involves the computer desk. I found out tonight that my friend's mom, who has been using said desk is willing to buy us a new one instead of giving up the desk. This does solve the configuration problem, because now we can go find something that will be more suitable to our living environment. It also means more shopping...Oh god! I don't want to do all the shopping we have to do. But...in order to get the apartment organized, we have to do it.
Master is asleep right now, and I should be too. I just finished setting the cable modem and wireless router. I wanted to write a little bit. I'm not writing as much as I thought I would, probably because of how tired I am.
A big shout out to my buddy SM for housing us for those few days and for putting up with all the anxious energy I had while we were staying at the Dawg House. His boys were really good about having other folks in their way. I hope we didn't cramp them too much.
And a really big squishy hug to photo boy and his Chateau Le Mew: er, housing our cats for almost a week, and putting up with Tigger's cry baby-ness.
And a big thanks to all of our friends, FOC, and loved ones for supporting us during this move, and cheering us on to get home.
Later, I'll right about the house blessing we held tonight. It was so much fun.
It's off to sleep-sleep for this tired boy.
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09.09.06
10:30 p.m.
All that Packing!
Get your mind out of the gutter! My last day of work was Monday. YAY! I'm free from the chaos that abounded there. No more crazy sous chefs and tempermental night time line cooks...for now.
We've been packing since Tuesday. Realistically it's been like 3-5 hours a day, so not full days. In between the packing, we've been running errands, and looking for a place to live. So the days have been full of activity. Both Master and I have been resisting several urges. One being the resistance to the packing itself. Another, just throwing everything into boxes and sorting it out later. The other, just dumping all of it, loading the animals up and high-tailing it to AZ as fast as we can.
Our focus has been pretty sharp. The Art room and office are 100% packed (office still has a few items, but all the little shit is done). The kitchen is about 80-85% complete. The bedroom is about half-way there. Most of our clothes are packed, and major items put away.
The living room is utter chaos. I feel so very sorry for Mamasita having to put up with all of this. We have boxes and stuff strewn about. We know what is in the boxes, but still, it's a real mess.
We have made progress. By Tuesday we will be ready to load the truck. If any of you remember our last move...yeah, that was fun. The day we got the truck we were less then 50% packed, and our friends had to help us. Both of us worked up until the last day, Master was recovering from illnes, and I was recovering from an iguana bite on my foot. We were both pretty tired from our jobs, and had a hard time getting motivated to pack our stuff. The resistance then came from the fact that we were leaving AZ. Today, our motivation to continue sorting, packing, and moving is because we are returning to our beloved home.
During this packing we have shed more stuff. More books, more extraneous items that we don't need. More office supplies, like old folders and things. It's been a good shed. We've been shedding the whole time we've been in Kansas. And though it looks like we still have so much stuff, in reality, we don't. And it will all fit into that 12 foot truck.
I am so excited to be going home. So many of our friends and loved ones want us there. We've been gone way to long as far as they are concerned. And for me, well, I've been about six months too long here in Kansas.
It's been good for me though, to get away from home base and experience a different kind of life. Complacency is never good, and sometimes I take AZ for granted. When we went home a couple weeks ago, I realized how much I miss the desert, and how much I need it! The first saguaro I saw, I could have kissed (owwww!)
We are asking everyone for extreme prayers, good energy, and mojo in order to secure this one house we've been working on getting over the last week. It's a cute little 2 bedroom, right in the part of town we want. It will probably be a little small, but it has a big backyard, and a porch swing!!!!! It's a quieter part of the neighborhood, and the landlord seems to be an amicable guy. Our move-in date would be a bit later than we had hoped, but to side-step credit checks, and "verifyable employment", I'll take it. We have a friend that will let us stay at their place until we can secure the house. We haven't secured it yet, so lots and lots and lots of good energy our way in order for that to happen.
I'm not worried about jobs, or being able to pay bills. I'll get a job. I've had almost 100% hit on my resume, and have two interviews lined up when I get home, and the possibility of going back to work for my former chef. I'd just like to make a bit more than what he'll give me. And without the having to "prove" myself...
So much stuff. We still have too much stuff, but we are closer this time then before about getting rid of stuff. I am acquiring a few more kitchen items, and that's the trade-off of getting rid of stuff. It's not like I went out and bought any of it. It was here in Mamasita's house, and it's stuff she doesn't use. I do. I only hope I'll have room for all of it. I feel like I'm rambling, and maybe ranting...if I continue, I'll start repeating myself.
I decided that during this ever-so-stressful time, that I would be attentive, and attend to Master's needs first. (I need to be doing this at all times, but as readers know, I'm a selfish kind of boy who has trouble in this area). I've been focused on helping her out when and where I can. When She calls, I get to Her as quick as I can, when She asks for my attention, I give it. I haven't been feeling like..."oh, what I'm doing isn't important???? Well, fine, what the f**k do you need, that it can't wait until I'm finished."
Having this much focus is reinforcing my enslavement to Her. She's started with the daily ritual of spanking again, and today I received a baby flogging. Not hard, not fast, but enough to help me feel more focused. It's good that the M/s dynamic is swinging back into a positive space. By the time we get back home, I might be able to keep that slave focus.
I'm looking forward to the MasT meeting next weekend (if I'm not working), and then there's a new spirituality in Leather group starting in Phoenix...yippee! I'm looking forward to getting together with my leather brothers, and fellow slaves, and seeing all of our friends and family. I'm homesick...wanna go home NOW!
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09.02.06
Another Ritual:
Yesterday, Master allowed me to shave Her head. Her hair had grown out quite a bit from being shaved in June. We have a pair of clippers that I had tried to use once before, a very long time ago, and it was unsuccessful.
I shaved her head on the patio where the wind was blowing the hair every which way. I wasn't terribly gentle I was told, although I tried to be. And it took some time, because I'd never shaved any one's head before. It was an enjoyable process for me because it was a service I provided for Master, and one she requested of me.
Most of the things we do on a daily basis are required aspects of life. Cooking dinner, cleaning things, this whole moving/packing thing. My going to work to earn a paycheck. They are in service to Master, but more on the routine/requirement list of things to do. I haven't been required to shave Master's head on a regular basis, so it was a new service I could provide, and one which I did with utmost curiosity and with what I thought was full attention to the task at hand.
Later, I was constantly amazed and startled when I looked at Her head all clean-shaven like it was when we came out of the Salon. (ok Fantastic Sam's, but technically it is still a Salon). What continually startled me is that I did that! I made Her head look that way. Pretty f***in cool!
As we move into the kind of chilly month of September, I am looking at only two more days of full-time employment. And then I am solely in Master's service to make this move happen. No time for being selfish boy, or stubborn boy. I must, I must give my full attention to Master's needs during this process. I believe I may have managed to solve one of Her problems...verifyable employment. I can contact the two agencies I do contract work for, one I just have to reactivate, and considering they called me last weekend, that will be easy. The other job I know I'll have to go fill out the forms etc, but then, it's a matter of getting a shift or two with them...bam! verifiable employment with two agencies at 9-10 per hour. That should or ought to, appease the Renting Gods.
I am not dreading this move as much as the last two, only because this means we can get back home. We are working on obtaining a sublet so that we don't have to come up with as much move-in costs. A friend went and looked at one today and thought it was absolutely amazing. He said it was our Apartment. I called the gentleman this afternoon, and he didn't seem terribly thrilled to be talking to me. Maybe because it was a long day for him.
I just want to go home...friends, family, desert, not so scary green. And familiar territory. Even though I've been in Topeka for almost a year, I still feel like a stranger here. Haven't made friends, haven't been able to really "connect" to the nature here. Been trying, and every once in a while I succeed, like when I went looking for my staff the other day. The area I wandered through gave it up beautifully. A water-worn, debarked tree branch that is a perfect walking stick/staff. A friend of mine will be carving it for me when we get home. I sat by the little bit of river as well, and enjoyed the area. But it was humid, there were bugs, and lots of spiderwebs, and it had rained, so the banks of the river were slippery and sticky...at least I found what I was looking for. And that's the most I've gotten out of the nature in this part of the country. Oh, and I caught a fish when we went camping. I let him go, but at least I caught one, and got to see a really cool snake.
So it's good bye to Kansas, Hello Arizona. And hopefully we'll be there before Sept 20th. That's the goal anyway.
Now you know.
And it will be good to get back to a more defined and structured M/s dynamic. All the subtelty and nuance around Master's mom has taken the edge out of our relationship. And lets not talk about the infrequency of sex. Yet another way I provide service for Master that has gone unused. It's not from lack of desire, but from circumstance and situation.
Home. Soon.
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