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12.14.04Assigned 12.12.04Affirmation: "This slave strives to be graceful and unobtrusive at all times."
Will this help me not be such a clutz? I have already been working on "deliberate motion." Moving with intent. This affirmation will help focus the exercise.
Unobtrusive? This slave feels like i am too pushy at times. Or that because i am a bouncy slave-boy, i "fill up the room." This part of the affirmation will help me to focus on not interrupting, and waiting until Master says i can speak. Master likes my boy energy, and does not want to diminish that, however, there are ways of becoming a better slave, especially out in public.
She assigned this affirmation based on one of the seminars i went to at SWLC.
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12.14.04Assigned 9.19.04Affirmation: "This slave presents possibilities without investing self in the answer, and waits for Master's instruction."
I don't have problems with presenting possibilities, it's the "without investment of self" that bothers me. Sometimes i hold an expected outcome of what i suggest to someone else. This affirmation is teaching me not to do that.
"Waiting Master's response" can be hard. Sometimes She doesn't respond right away, or i hear what i don't want to hear, and get frustrated.
It's not easy to be a slave and to learn new behaviors. This affirmation is a useful tool for focus of slave heart.
12.14.04
Master finally ended the last affirmation on 12.12.04. There are many factors for this. This affirmation helped me to remove ego when making suggestions. It has helped with removing emotional investments in what i suggest to Master. It was extremely useful when we were looking for a vehicle, and has become a big help on the job. I thank Master for the use of this affirmation.
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09.11.04Assigned 08.29.04Affirmation: "This slave seeks "rightness" and personal power in obedience."
This affirmation appeals to the enlightened part of this boy. In obedience i find personal power. I'd never given much thought to the concept that being obedient could bring about positive change.
I know that in my life prior to Master, i was not disciplined in personal behaviors that were dangerous. Since being with Master, i have removed negative aspects of self, and replaced them through serving Her. This affirmation further solidifies seeking positive activities in my life as opposed to seeking out danger and self-destructive behaviors.
It is helping my focus in being able to continue a positive spiritual path, and following Master's guidence.
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07.08.04Assigned 07/04/04"A slave submits with Dignity to any order, punishment or use, and shows the proper attitude toward correction and punishment."
i am getting better at doing affirmations. Master assigned this one on Sunday night. i was able to learn it right away. It is helping with my attitude toward serving Her. That i submit "with dignity', not with resistance. This appeals to my civil and polite side. Submission does not have to be a chore, or subjugation.
I surrendered to Master willingly two years ago, and i continue to serve Her, and strive to correct behavior and lessen the resistance on a daily basis. It is still very much a day to day endeavor with me. However, i know that i serve a kind and worthy Master. And any attitude i was developing, is starting to slip away. Now that there is someone else in the Household, i also have to be an example. The addition has helped my focus, and my desire to serve Master to the best of my ability.
I am pleased that it took no time to learn this affirmation. Even though i still forget when to say it, i am remembering more often. Master has implemented corrective behavior to help me remember. I must say the affirmation on my knees, either in the shower, the office, or by the door, and i say it five times for every time i forget. This is helping me to remember more often to say the affirmation in the shower. We have a very scratchy bath mat, and it isn't comfortable to kneel on.
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7.04.04Affirmation: "It is the ordering of one's life, according to the principles of service and obedience, that makes one a slave."Master has had me using the same affirmation for the last three weeks. I still do not remember to affirm in the shower. Sometimes i don't remember to affirm coming into, or leaving the house. I usually remember when i get on the computer or doing household chores. Master asked me to write about how i feel about using the same affirmation for this length of time. The affirmations are something Master ordered me to do. When She desires to change it, then i will begin to use the new affirmation. I don't really have much feeling about it. This is a difficult concept because i am an emotional person. Usually i have strong feelings, and opinions about behaviors and things that go on in my life. The affirmations are what they are; a way for this boy to focus. A ritual Master has implemented in my daily life. I have been wondering when She would change the affirmation, and then i remember, it is none of this slave's business when or how or why the Master decides to do something, or not do it. I am more concerned over not being able, after three months, to remember to say the affirmations in the shower. There has been enough time for me to incorporate this into my shower routine. It's possible that because i think in the shower, i am not remembering to affirm. Maybe there is some psychological resistance. Whatever the reason, i hope to correct this in the future. I will attempt to remember the current affirmation until Master tells me otherwise. Then i will learn the new affirmation. It will be more challenging because there will be another person in Our life on a regular basis. And i will still have to remember the affirmations. Leaving the house, going into the house, in the shower, doing chores, and when getting on puter.
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06/14/04"It is the ordering of one's life, according to the principles of service and obedience, that makes one a slave."This is the assigned affirmation for the week. So far, i haven't been very good at saying it when i am supposed. At some point this will become habit, right? Unlike the affirmation from 5/25, i don' t have resistence to this particular phrasing. I'm just having memory problems about when to do the affirmation. No excuse because it is written right up at the top of this page... Service is what my life is about. Obedience has always been a problem. Making one' self a slave, well, that is there, it is the implementation of the process. And how well i can give in to Master's wants, desires, and needs.
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06/08/04
Slave’s Affirmations:
Assigned June 7, 2004
This is affirmation is easier to both understand and follow. It has been a topic of many conversations. It is addressed in “Slavecraft,” and numerous other texts. I know that I don’t need to comprehend an Order. Although, being a pesky boy, sometimes I want to ask why, or how come. This elicits exasperation from Master on some occasions. On others She exhibits impatience. This affirmation is there for me to focus on not asking why, even out of peskiness. I don’t mind saying this affirmation because I need to internalize this particular quality into the slave-heart.
I know Master has implemented the Affirmations for my benefit. Learning how to be a better slave, and having more focus on Her rather than myself. I will have resistance to some of them, but that resistance will wear away with daily guidance.
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05/25/04 3:30 pm“Living in Obedience goes beyond following orders; it means this slave actively strives to want only what Master wants.”
I’m having a very hard time with this Affirmation. Maybe it’s the wording, maybe because it involves me actively with the process of Surrender, one which goes deeper than the Surrender I’ve already given.
I’ve been having a hard time with surrender this week. I’ve been selfish and moody, and want to do what I want, not what Master wants me to. We haven’t been actively pursuing certain rituals Master has instigated, and maybe this is why I am having a hard time. There are other issues. When I was sick, nothing got done in the kitchen, the house kind of fell apart, and I got a resentment towards Master for not helping. She made food, and took care of me, and was concerned that I was sick, but no housework, and no following of certain rules She herself instigated, not just for me, but for both of us.
If I am going to surrender to Her all the way, and I am told we are supposed to be doing certain things to keep the house clean, and I don’t see those things happening, I get grumpy. I get an attitude, and I wonder, “why bother at all, She’s not doing anything to help.”
And it is an attitude and I know that. She has been supporting the both of us on Her paycheck. She wants me to go back to work, and She wants to see me successful at my poetry and art. So to follow “only what Master wants” becomes problematic for me, because what if there are things I do want that She doesn’t? What if I don’t want to go back to work, or strive to be better? (not gonna happen, still it’s an example.)
So I’ll work through this, she’ll read this, we’ll talk about it, and come to some form of agreement.
We went to APEX last night, for Master Z and slave boy tony’s presentation. It is so good to see them again, and listen to slave boy tony talk about his path. He is like me, a hybrid. Slave and boy. So I talked to him for a bit, and he suggested that I talk to Master about this.
We had a good time at APEX and it was weird seeing the space all taken apart, but I hear the new space is going to be fantastic, and I can’t wait.
This is supposed to be about the Affirmation. I’ve said what I needed to say. |
4/12/04I was assigned the first Affirmation last night.“It is this slave’s intent to obey Master’s will naturally, and without Attitude.” How do I feel about it? It’s a new thing. I am supposed to recite it in the shower, before getting on the computer, when I’m doing housework, and on command. It is my intent to follow this new rule and to incorporate it into my daily life. Without Attitude. I only hope I don’t get an attitude about doing it down the road.
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