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5.24.11
12:30 p.m.

I recently went back through the journal that I keep offline, and found a couple of entries from earlier this year that I needed to post here at slaveboy. So if you read down, you'll find "new" posts, but really, I wrote them awhile ago.

I've been hard at work revamping the poetry website. It consumed like 2 weeks of my time. At the same time, still maintaining momentum on the culinary blog too. Busy boy for the Spring. I also still have to keep Master fed, do the chores, and be available for Her. Oh, and take care of my Spiritual needs.

This year I have a neat little garden going, and for the first time ever, I have a great tomato plant growing. It exploded, and is growing every where. The tomatoes are delicious.The chard, though small, is very flavorful. I also have chives, and a couple lettuce plants. The lettuce plants really are just because I can. Not necessarily to consume. I had a really hard time getting a garden going last year. And here, I'm in the middle of the concrete jungle with some great plants going. I only wish I could make the garden bigger.

I have a birthday next week, my 50th. I guess Master thinks it's a big deal, and for someone who doesn't usually celebrate birthdays, She's been planning and scheming for this one. I'm getting kind of excited. I'll let you know how it turns out.

04.20.11
11:30 p.m.

It is a new year, and new beginnings. This year started out with deaths in the FOO, and one of my cats, Xena, dying from a terrible tumor below her bulla sac in her ear. It has been challenging to move through these painful experiences, and see my own mortality.

I have been struggling with a weight issue. Not getting any younger, and I don't watch what I eat at work. So back to not snacking on the quick pastries that give me a burst of energy and then make me crash later. Just went out and bought a bunch of veggies to juice. Hopefully this time it will stick.

Haven't been doing much in the BDSM world. Just focusing on my relationship with Master, and builidng a solid work reputation. The culinary website is kicking up right now, and I'm writing on it every week. Getting visitors finally. It went from nothing to lots in less than three months.

So maybe I'll get back to writing over here. It is still a handbuilt and old school website. Not planning on getting fancy with slaveboy (although that sounds like a lot of fun). Still, it's a good spot to place my thoughts that are not work or business-related.

02.12.11 5:30 p.m.

I should be cooking:

but...

1. Things we accomplished today: Income tax return deposited in the bank. Master paid some bills, and we went shopping.
2. Goodwill: Two pairs of pants, and a few decent shirts. One of them denim...yay!
3. Checked for furniture, small dining table and an office/art chair...no luck.
4. Wal-mart: (boo-hiss) for necessary toiletries, and other assorted items.
5. PetSmart: Found a new litter box with a hood, big enough for Mr. Tigger...yay!
6. Best buy: found a pair of headphones. Also found router/modem, but not allowed to buy yet.
7. Found Digital tv antenna, but found a couple cheaper on line...will purchase the Target one. It says it's not available at the store near us, but I might want to jet down there and look just in case. The Modem/Router is not much cheaper elsewhere, and I like it, it's a motorola, and will replace two items that have to be plugged in. Cox doesn't necessarily recommend it, but they do support it.
8. And made a payment on the student loan.

And it's a good day in boy-land. Phoenix is really beautiful right now, and Master doesn't feel well.

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01.25.11

The Primal within: Working with Primal Forces as Spiritual Practice.

What is it about the primal voice from the drum? The drum calls the animal spirit from within. Moves the force, brings it forth, gives it voice.

Scream, cry, growl, crawl on all fours, bang on the chest, anything but speaking. No words, no thought, just instinct. Smell, taste, touch to know surroundings.

What is the primal force as spiritual practice? Every time I get in touch with that force within me, I come out stronger. There is hidden knowledge that is revealed. Sometimes, answers to a question. But I never know what will come. With the beat of the drum, and the breath, I pull down into a force older, more ancient than any of my selves. I touch the beginning and end of the Universe, I am one with the Creator/Destructor. I become the Divine.

I succumb to a force I know I do not control, but have learned how to use when taking this journey.